INNER PEACE

Sometimes its hard to understand

Why things are the way they are

Why good things happen to bad people

And bad things happen to good people

Sometimes its hard to comprehend

How the world ended up so cruel

Why people act selfishly and shamelessly

Why people seek the downfall of others

Sometimes its hard to understand

Why the good people die

And why God asks you to forgive

When we will never see our loved ones again

Sometimes its hard to comprehend

Sometimes its hard to Forgive

Always its hard to forget

Always its harder to talk to God about it

But when you do

Oh, when you do

Sigh... such relief

Sigh... inner peace

For He calms our fears

For He soothes our aches

Though we refuse to understand

That He sorts out all in due time

Once we ask, When we ask

He grants us peace

He calms our fears

He soothes our aches

Who do you look to?

'I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord who made Heaven and earth. He will not let my foot be moved. He who keeps me will not slumber.......' Psalm 121

For some reason, I have been so vimless these days. It's really crazy. I don't know if any of you have ever gotten to a point in your life where for some reason you feel too lazy to read your Bible. Too lazy to have your quiet time and meditate, and too lazy to pray for yourself. Funny thing is I found time to stop in the middle of the day and say a short prayer for other people that I cared about. Yet I couldn't pray for myself. I dunno why. Maybe I thought my problems where so many and if i started praying, it would end up praying for like 30 minutes or something. Or maybe I just didn't want to deal with my problems, because in order to pray about something, I would have to think about it first, and I didn't want to have to deal with that. Ok, now I'm sure you think I have some pleeeeeeeenty problems. I probably don't. Hmmm... But life after college seems to be a big one. Extended family issues seems to be another one. Just those two are enough to give me a headache. I guess another thing is that somehow I figured that God would always be there for me, and He knows my needs, my dreams, my aspirations, my musings and my confusion .... or maybe I was just being lazy and stupid. Who knows. Anyway, I prayed yesterday.. it took a lot for me to pray. Yet after I finished I felt so relieved. I felt like I had just spoken to my long lost friend. My friend who was always 1 step behind me and 2 steps ahead of me at the same time. The friend who protected me from 'the snare of the fowler' and who 'sent his angels to take charge of me and guard me in all my ways ... ' (Psalm 91).  I felt so relieved yesterday, because I felt like I had properly poured my heart out. I even prayed for all my friends that I was worried about. Those who were sick, those who were looking for jobs, those with relationship problems etc.. Felt so much better than my random one minute 'Oh God, How are You? I know You are well. I'm also well. Please guide me through the day. Amen' or 'God, you said by your stripes we are healed. Please heal so and so person. aMEN'. Not that there's anything wrong with those short hurried prayers on the tube. However, its always good to spend more time with God, have a conversation with him, and pour your heart out. Trust me, when you are done, you'll feel so much better.

So here's my question for the day.
When you are in need, when your friends are in need, who do you look to? For who you look to will greatly affect your mood, your perspective, and the result you get!

Peace and Love ppl!

I Look To You - Whitney Houston

Thankful 102

Dear God,

Thanks for the other night: family time with you is refreshing.
Thanks for my job and all my colleagues at work. They are painful and wonderful at the same time.
Thanks a lot for allowing me to understand and love my work. I already see myself shining like you promised. Tell Mr. Ghost to keep me humble even when I make it to the top.
Lord thanks for transportation forth and back every day...When do I get my own ride?? My legs almost always don't fit in the darn commercial buses.
I'm also grateful for the stunt you pulled the other day. I was shocked but glad you did.
Thanks because you alone give me the strength to work as much as I do. I hope this blessing comes without gray hair. I'm still young.
Thanks for UPS Ghana. They're timely and reliable and without them I never would've been able to get a copy of Sherri Shepherd's Permission Slips.
Thanks for letting the reader of this post understamd that although the book targets women, there are some interesting things everyone can learn from it therefore reading it doesn't make me sissy. Plus it's enjoyable to say the least.
Thanks because I was wrong about the dude who I thought was gay. It would've been a shame.
Thanks for all those ideas you keep pushing into my head but good God! slow down....ok so will you add that to my swearing list? I hope not because really, I AM talking to YOU.
Thanks for understanding.
...Thanks for listening to all my prayers and answering some. Try email sometime, it's really good. You could have your own Gmail (GodMail) account.
Thanks for small mercies. I was thinking, instead of giving them bit by bit why don't you put them all together and gimme a HUGE blessing? Never mind me Lord, you know what's best for me and I thank you for not making me figure everything out myself. To have your job would be just impossible for mortal me. Your multi-tasking is off the hook! Yea, I watched Bruce Almighty. I think you were great and you made your point. Now I know for sure that you're black. lol.

Sincerely yours,

Ananse

Answered Prayer

I asked for health that I might do greater things
I was given infirmity that I might do better things
I asked God for strength that I might achieve
I was made weak that I might learn to obey
I asked for riches that I might be happy
I was given poverty that I might be wise
I asked for power and the praise of men
I was given weakness to sense my need of God
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life
I was given life that I might enjoy all things
I got nothing I asked for but everything I hoped for
Inspite of myself, my prayers were answered-
I am among all men most richly blessed.

Author Unknown

LET HIM

Oh troubled heart, why do you worry?

Why the self pity?..the gnashing of teeth

and why do tears fall freely down your face?

Why do you fear?

Oh troubled heart

Did HE not say HE has got your back?

Did HE not say HE will always be there?

Did HE not say 'call on me and I will answer'?

'Ask and it shall be given'?

'Seek and ye shall find'?

So why do you worry my ears with your wailing

Your ranting, Your raving

What is stopping you from going down on those knees

From asking for what seems nearly impossible

Do you think HE brought you this far to watch you fall?

Lift you this high just to see you tumble down?

'Build me up buttercup', HE does not play

Sadistic tendencies, HE has none of that

So please do allow me to sleep

For I am the wrong person to talk to

I see not how I can possibly help

I certainly did not make you.