Helloooo...

Hellooooo....

Hellooooo....

Can you hear me?






Silence?

Hellooooooo....

I feel like I'm having a one sided conversation. I'm always talking, always ranting, always complaining, and You don't say anything. I want You to talk to me. I wish You would just talk to me. I guess You can call me lazy, for not trying to understand through the little things You do. Maybe its human nature, or again, maybe I'm just lazy. I really just want You to talk to me. I want to have some form of dialogue, like when I chat with my friends and family. I want you to say something funny, and I want to be able to get the joke. I want to say something funny, and know if You feel disrespected or You also find it funny. I want to be able to ask the difficult questions, without being judged by others who might be listening. I want to be able to tell You about my ideas and theories without being afraid that I might get struck my lightening. Is it alright if I talk to You about issues like homosexuality? Is it okay if I have a discussion with you? Will you give me an instant heart attack if I said something like 'Well, God realized human beings need to learn to live with and understand people who are different, so there are people who are non-conformists, like lesbians and gay guys. Live with them, respect them and do not judge.' or 'Is that just some evil strain of who-knows-what that we need to fight', 'sin or no sin, is it in the Bible, i must have seen it somewhere, but I'm not too sure'? I wish I could just have a conversation with You. One that didn't involve me doing all the talking. One that didn't involve me waiting for answers. Like the one you had with Abraham, Isaac, Elijah, Paul etc..

Can I handle it though, or will it blow my mind right into insanity?

Sigh. I get frustrated sometimes. I just thought I'd let You know. Please show me what I'm looking for, before I really go insane.